Suppressing the Monster.

I'm not one for chatting it up on my blog unless I have a story... (usually something that I want to remind myself of later.)
Today is Friday and I've spent the last few weeks really pumping up Easely Erin with a giveaway, a new wallet design, several Whippoorwill bags, etc.  This is all wonderful and dandy for me, except that I have an issue of fighting with myself of when to CHILL.  My pal Amy, (if you like stories, read her blog: amysnorris.blogspot.com) has been inspiring, supportive, and most of all "a friend" in this little journey I started one evening in January when I told her, "I've got an idea and I want to make it happen."  The issue is: once I started, I didn't realize what I was unleashing. 
I've always been super creative, spent 5 years straight of painting and drawing for almost 6 hours a day during college and learned that I can push myself to do things that I don't think I can... and be GOOD at them.  Enter THE SEWING MACHINE.  When I started, I was hand-sewing my little "snuggle pillow" puppies and was enjoying it.  Then I realized, this is taking A LOT of time... away from my two little boys that I'm supposed to be watching/raising (oh, did I not mention them yet?  They are attached to each of my legs.)  So, I decided I wanted to try out my sewing machine that has been sitting in a closet for roughly 5 years.  And over the past 6 months I've been bringing ideas to life with it.  It's like this little friend that helps me make things happen with minimal effort (compared to painting and drawing... which takes hours of solitude and concentration from me).
Okay, back to Amy, she and I talk about our noggins a lot and how they just don't stop... I mean literally, the gears are turning in our sleep.  I wake up at 3 am, and walk to my home office and plop on the computer, pull out a notepad, open Illustrator, assess materials, etc.  It's RIDICULOUS.  I feel like there are endless opportunities and it's hard to "push the off button" even for a day! 
I promised Donnie, my handsome, hardworking husband, that today, I would NOT be sewing a stitch, buying any fabric, thinking about design... but instead I would clean up the house, bathe my children and myself, and run some overdue errands (um, we are out of milk, eggs, and almost out of diapers...sigh.)  Is this what is happening to me?  I went from cleaning my house 3 times a week and being OCD about every little thing to now becoming obsessive about deadlines for MY little business?  Hello, I control Easely Erin, yet this week, I feel like inside of me there is a little boss saying, "get it EE.  Oh and while you are at it, when are you starting on those Fall bags?"
WHO IS THIS LITTLE MONSTER INSIDE???  And does it give me days off? 
I just took a shower and the whole time I'm bathing, I was thinking, "ooooh, maybe I could somehow scan in my charcoal dog drawings and turn them into note card sets to sell."  "ooooh, I wonder if I have time to go to the quilt shop and get some pretty fabric to make MYSELF a wallet."  "oooh, I wonder what kind of sales are going on at JoAnns this weekend."
STOP IT.
You don't have milk.  Do your hair, strap those babies in the car and get to the store.  Do not touch your machine, do not stop at any place where you can buy fabric or notions, and for goodness sake, STAY OFF OF ETSY (I mean, it's just a day, right?)
This is what I deal with.  It's a beautiful blessing and an awful monster.  There, I feel better just saying it.

Old Erin would have NEVER let her guest room look like this- how embarrassing!